The thinking process in starting a life changing journey is full of excitement and I'm wildly more ambitious than ever. This choice to change my life, to take control and become a person who I really feel familiar with - the real me.
I know we all have different goals and opinions of what it means to embark on a weight-loss journey, and my personal jabber may or may not be akin to that of others.
What I do know is - there's something I want; I want to reach my potential and find peace within myself. Perfection. The way I want it.
It's not just about losing weight (But don't worry! Read on.)
It's definitely different from my days of being a teenager - it's not about looking beautiful, or matching up to the images of models so wonderfully poised among the media, the magazines, and the ridiculous standard for what a beautiful person should look like.
I'm done fighting the harsh demands of a perfect figure that is unobtainable; and above all - imaginary.
The goal I want to attain in my journey is contentment - and realizing that instead of becoming a painted barbie-doll, my demands are simple - I just want to be me, the girl I know and love. Considering I've been "me" for about 23 years (as of two days ago, yipee!), I'd say I have a pretty good start!
The past troubles of trying to be "beautiful" as a youth have always been the same - brief moments of false satisfaction and then more disappointment, more damaging than the last.
With everything else in my life finally falling into place (Or as much as I can tell - I'm waaay too lucky.), working on self-improvement seems about the last step.
You might ask, "If you're so happy with yourself, then why try and change?"
Tsk, tsk, tsk, friend. It's not me I want to change, but only that I am of my greatest potential.
And if I want to live out this great life as long as possible, the first thing I need to work on is health.
Feeling lethargic, never content with the lack of energy, stomach-aches, headaches, random ailments - All things I hope to improve upon in losing weight and turning a completely nutrition-oblivious plain Jane into a health-conscious, bursting bundle of joy who doesn't have to sit out in the shade when outdoors or gaze at mountains from the bottom floor instead of at the top. Most important of all - I'd be saving my own life! Seems pretty clear to me.
There are just too many things I have yet to do in life, and at only 23 I feel old and tired.
It's not how it should be, and it doesn't have to be!
Being thin and beautiful is but a simple plus - a single reward among MANY soon to come in getting my ass in gear and doing something about my desires instead of just dreaming them.
Once you know what you are capable of, once you realize the resources available to make your dreams come true, the last step is to make them happen.
I've got...alooooot of dreams.
Looking at it like this, weight-loss and becoming healthy seems like the easiest step of a short stack of stairs.
Just a little bit more to go - and it begins now!
I love positive encouragement, and while like everyone else there are times when I feel less than as confident as I do now, writing my first post; I believe that chronicling my journey and sharing in other's will give me the support and motivation I need. I hope that someday, my story will serve the same purpose to you.
Thank you so much for reading, and I look forward to celebrating my (our) success, one goal at a time!
I'm just an average girl with big dreams, my writing/grammar is by no means spectacular, but I hope in time writing more and more, I can also improve my literary skills.
Who knows, a couple of months from now, perhaps I'll have the perfect figure after all,
and look something like this guy :) -
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| YAY VICTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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